3 weeks, 30, and everything in between…

HB        First day of schoolHB bday

Oh man where do I begin? A lot sure can happen in a short amount of time. I’m going to share a recap of my last 3+ weeks but hope to elaborate on certain situations in the near future…

Since I last updated I was hired on as a 3rd grade teacher, my dream profession. I am technically a long-term substitute as I am currently enrolled in a multiple subject credential program, but due to the circumstances I started the day before the first day of school (08/20/15). Last year I made connections with another teacher at my site, and she recommended me when the full-time teacher I replaced became seriously ill. It’s been a wonderful yet exhausting past three weeks. I guarantee you I was 10x more nervous than my students on the first day of school. I am learning something new everyday and always have work to do, but I am incredibly happy and humbled to hold such an important position.

I had a milestone birthday about two weeks ago. The big 3-0! I was able to get away for the weekend and visit my favorite SoCal spot. I spent quality time with loved ones and shared an intimate celebratory dinner. The summer sun does me good, and it was nice to get out of the desert heat for a little while. I received many phone calls and messages from dear friends near & far, and was grateful for the outpouring of love and support during this new phase of life. It wasn’t exactly how I thought I would bring in this new decade of life, but nothing really ever goes as planned- might as well enjoy it.

Happiness is letting go of what you think your life is supposed to look like & celebrating it for everything that it is…

I received a birthday package from O that had me a little taken aback. He was always good at giving me thoughtful gifts, but why now? We hadn’t had any form of communication in over a month, and nothing of significance since before I left. The card is what really shook me up. I had been having a really stressful day so by the time I read his sentiments I was in tears. I have to keep reminding myself that he was always good with his words, it was his actions that got the best of me. We ended up exchanging some messages wherein omissions were made and certain feelings were expressed. I’m still not sure what the point of it all was but I’m trying not to overthink it. He made a choice and asked me to leave- I’ve kept my distance, but do still gravely miss his presence in my life. 

Due to my crazy stress levels I am experiencing a flareup with my IBD, Ulcerative Colitis. Still intend to post about my auto-immune journey and hopefully “meet” some other chronically awesome warriors in doing so. Stress is really bad for any illness but especially one involving your gastrointestinal system. I haven’t been able to hold down much food, and have had to start taking my super strong meds again which weakens my immune system and messes with all other healthy human functions. I’m trying to keep my spirits up, not catch any of my students germs (haha), and work hard to achieve remission.

I’ve gone on a few dates, but realize I am nowhere near ready to emotionally invest with anyone. The desert dating pool has been terrifying if I’m being honest haha, but I’m not exactly in the right place to start something new with someone. I do hope that when the right time comes along I will be able to find a goal-oriented, like-minded individual to go on adventures with and add to my life. That’s not too much to ask for right? I have to hope for the best.

Lastly, my Fall one session began last night. I really need to work on my time management skills if I am going to keep my stress levels at bay, and keep my straight A streak alive. Grad school, teaching, gym, and personal life (or lack thereof)- yikes! Wish me luck! Can’t even imagine if I came home to hungry kids and loads of chores to do on top of all of that. Kudos to all of you hardworking peeps out there. I do miss having someone to lean on and support me during those long days and hard-fought battles. I’m taking life one day at a time and believe that things are falling into place for a reason. The best is yet to come…

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